Somedays I wonder how long it will keep hurting for? How long until the painful memories, which flood my mind, how long until they stop effecting me? The pain is getting unbearable. The whole controlling my emotions takes too much energy that it is difficult to function. I find sleeping is the best way to escape these, even if it is only for a little while. There are times I hate sleeping. Sometimes the nightmares are scary, they are so real. I think my brain thinks it is funny to continue to torture me with constantly replaying me my childhood memories. The pain always comes back but i can never block them out. Maybe one day the pain and torture will stop, but for now I will have to struggle through. This is my reality and I have to struggle through in order to protect everyone.
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