Isolation

Have you ever felt like hiding, like protecting yourself from all the pain in the world because you just can't take it anymore. I feel like that on a regular basis but stress about if I did remove myself fully from society, who would look after all the people I have to look after and what would happen to them? Because of this fear, I never run away, I am stuck between mixed emotions in my head and mixed thoughts of what I should do. I can only isolate myself so much before my brain kicks in and says that I want to be around people and this constant battle of thoughts is so tiring. I figure that I can occasionally isolated myself but appear not to be by creating invisible walls where I am still functioning in society and the people which don't know what is going on can think that everything is okay and I'm 'fine and dandy' when really I'm dying inside, not wanting to socialize. And the people whoo know me understand this and adapt according to the day. Isn't that what we all do anyway, we adapt to the people and situations around. To the circumstances in which we are put and cannot change. Everyone has to adapt at some stage in their life, the only question is whether it is going to be good or bad? Will the situation be horrible and have a negative effect on us or will it be positive? The downside to this is most of the time it has a negative effect as only the lucky people get to have the circumstances change for good.